today i decided to come to my mothers house and so i did. and i got here and she had told me on the phone she wouldent be here and she'd leave the door open. so i came in and was 'chillin' for a while and then i allowed myself to start watching porn and i masturbated several times.
this is fucking unacceptable, and i am taking for granted the time i have to do restitution and equalize myself to life.
i either start standing without falling all the time or i die.